The Underside of the Tapestry

Sometimes when we think we’re at the top of our game, life gives us a good whack to bring us back down to earth.  I thought I was pretty invincible and ready to have the best start to 2013 with two big races and one epic fun run coming up.  The Mac Ass 25K with lots of elevation gain, followed running the entire Wildwood Trail (31 miles) in Forest Park, followed by the Hagg Lake Mud Run 50k.  I’ve been chomping at the bit, running up and down mountains, running at high altitude, running on snow, and cross training with skiing down double black diamonds in Jackson Hole, WY.  Invincible, right?

Wrong.  On Thursday evening and into Friday of last week, I experienced a medical emergency.  My illness was totally unrelated to running, but nevertheless, I ended up in the ER with my wonderful husband at my side.  Both of us pale faced and in disbelief, we finally accepted the fact that things would be different for a while.  We would need to recover emotionally and I would need to recover physically.  One at a time, doctors told me that I needed to rest including no work, no strenuous exercise, and definitely no running.

Crap.  Today, it is difficult for me to get up the stairs.  It is difficult for me to bend over and put on my socks and my shoes.  I was so tired after showering that I had to sit on the couch for half an hour before attempting my next move.  My point is, this is one of the most emotionally draining and humbling experiences of my life.  That being said, here’s what I’m thankful for:

  • My prior heath and fitness level to keep me strong during recovery
  • My beautiful partner in life, my husband Mike to hold my hand
  • My family who has been so supportive and knowledgeable in our time of need.  Thanks Jill, Mom, Dad, Claudia, Ken, and Lauren!
  • My friends who are my second family, they’re calling and texting and sending love.
  • My co-workers who are working overtime to see Mike and I’s patients when we cannot be there.  And my supervisors who are like family at this point and sending their love and compassion.
  • The future prospect of health, running and new life.

My friend, Emily, gave me a beautiful image to get through this difficult time.  She said that the underside of the tapestry is twisted in knots and tangles, and sometimes it’s easy to get lost in the endless web.  It takes some time, but eventually you will be able to see the top of the tapestry, which holds a beautiful, intricate design.  Without the knots and tangles holding it together, the design wouldn’t be as beautiful or well put together.  Thank you Emily, for that healing thought.

In the meantime, here are some pictures that we snapped before our setback:

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13 Replies to “The Underside of the Tapestry”

  1. Hoping you feel better very, very soon and that it’s not too serious. And the scenery you have on your runs is beautiful!! I’m wondering what the lowest temp was that you’ve worn your VFF’s in? I stopped wearing mine outside when the temp went past -5C (23F).

    1. Hi Momma! Thank you for your support and concern. Yes we’ve been pretty lucky to be in such a beautiful place when all this happened! The lowest temp I’ve worn mine in was about -8 deg F, I’m not sure what that is in C. It was cold! I will say this, my toes were a little numb for the first mile, but they warmed up after that with no problem. I was wearing my Injinji socks 🙂

      1. That’s -22 C!! That’s really cold! I have the Smartwool socks so you’ve definitely inspired me to try out my VFF’s in colder weather than I have. Thanks!! And love your blog by the way!

  2. I’m so sorry to hear about your illness, and I hope it’s not too serious and not too long of a recovery. The Tetons are one of my favorite places, and your pictures made me miss Jackson Hole terribly. Rest up!

  3. Absolutely beautiful pics — I love the Tetons! I went on a week-long backpacking trip there a number of years ago and it was simply breathtaking. I love the pic of you and your hubby with the headlamps.

    So sorry to hear about your injury/illness and wishing you a very speedy recovery.

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